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heartbreaking.

strugglingpowerfully — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 05:06:38 +0000

http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2010/01/haiti_six_days_later.html

it’s that bad.

yet what are we doing about it….

I admit…

strugglingpowerfully — Fri, 31 Jul 2009 18:48:34 +0000

i’ve not been feeling too good recently. but feelings are feelings… working on it now (: so God… whatever it is, i’m clinging on to You. for my dear life.

is it me? or what. hmmms.

these independant, lonely moments are so tough. but i know no one else can go through this for me. funny… doesn’t feel like a very fine beginning to the official next phase of my life ):

all i can say is,

keep going chia. God’s with you..

back home after 3 weeks

strugglingpowerfully — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 17:20:51 +0000

i can’t believe it, it IS really 3 weeks since i last saw home. the familiar gathering of dangerous looking humongous black ants, the familiar smell of my pillow (hehe), the familiar toilet i share with my brother. hurray, i’m home! (:

just some updates then. in point form. not in the writing mood now.

Brisbane trip…

- caught a bad head-cold during conference. but received overflowing TLC in return <3
- received so much from the Ablaze people and heard so much from God, it was utterly mindblowing
- discovered my twin there: Lauranne (:
- found my wife there: MEL!
- discovered many other awesome dancers like ashley and dave!
- thankful to dave for his encouragement and advice.
- the only heart-to-heart talk i had was with steph (: i enjoyed every single moment of it my dear!
- yumyum, torchie’s cooking ROCKS!
- that night at mount cootha was CRAZY good fun!
- left a box of cherry liqueur chocs there…….. forgot to bring it to the airport.
- missing my new ablaze friends right now !!

back in singapore…

- stayed away from home for a week… was down with fever. okay i know right. weak.
- sharlene was my housemate-mother-nurse. FRIENDS, SHE makes A GOOD WIFE! heheheee
- finished half of sytycd season4, fell in love with chelsie hightower.
- finished jap drama “my handsome butler” in a day. A DAY.
- ate alot. serangoon central is sinful. correction – staying in the centre of serangoon central makes you really really sinful! just walking down to buy bread alone… you can almost hear all the eateries calling out my name.
- i missed my brother. aw.

and now…

- i miss my housemate!
- but i’m so happy to be back home
- can’t believe i’ve not danced in 3 weeks
- but looking forward to having dance next week! every night!
- can’t wait to meet up with allllll my sheep, i miss ya’ll girls!!!
- thinking about what PJ always says: when man works, man works. but when man prays, God works. and when God works God really works!!

OKAY! so that’s my life in 3 weeks. boring no?

pour a bucket of blood to inspire a drop

strugglingpowerfully — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 10:52:06 +0000

just beginning to understand the likes of it…. and feeling it.

and it’s only the starting!!

⁴Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
James 1:4-5

hmmmm.. sometimes… okay, all the time, i think i pray too little. waaaayyy too little. the next one week at home will be a good time for me to get the momentum up and going

missing the cooling weather, the company, and the food

strugglingpowerfully — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 15:14:02 +0000

just as i was getting used to the weather, it’s time to return to sunny singapore. as much as i’m missing my singaporean friends, i so miss the awesome moresome company. yes like what shirls says, will be in this state of dissonance for a few days *tears hair*

fun aside, God spoke and moved heaps and loads. lessons learnt, experiences gained, words spoken, tears shed…. now it’s time to move on!

i’m ready to step into a new season, a new future. kairos moment, indeed! actually am abit speechless about this whole thing… im just bubbling with much excitement (abit of fear and trembling maybe =s)! things are gonna be different……… wheeooho!

I’m falling in love again…

strugglingpowerfully — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 16:53:15 +0000

this is crazy. i love contemp. i loveeeee contemp! (: karla is dope. her techniques are great. and check out her emotions. i adore contemp. and i adore partnering work even more. when can we hit a level like that!! GUYS!! STEP UP AND DO CONTEMP, its no sissy thing. it’s beautifulllll.

i’ve class tomm .. hopefully ash ali’s teaching us! and after that TBG concert with ydance peeps. can’t wait can’t wait. so dance-filled.

new life..

strugglingpowerfully — Wed, 17 Jun 2009 17:59:05 +0000

i signed up for FOC not knowing what i’m getting myself into. now that the ogls have sent me the email and they tell me my group is called harry potter, i suddenly feel really lame. but okay, for the sake of making friends and making my uni life more enjoyable. because i totally need to learn to enjoy school. lol. BUT THE PACKING LIST REALLY SUCKS?! why got matchmaking session one. why got swimming included. why why why….

started DPP today. very very very beginner class. we started with contemp and ballet. and i’d say the whole session is rather humbling. i had to teach myself to be patient, to help my other mates along because they’re new to the genre, and i certainly felt like a million bucks when i encouraged a friend and she appeared to be very appreciative of it (: anyway, it’s back to basics. so i have time to correct my 4 years of incorrect techniques (well, SOME..).

as i was observing the lesson, the thought of building up young christian dancers suddenly came to mind. nurturing beautiful, godly young women and training excellent godly young men.. not to grow up as how the world would have its dancers. i have some ideas about that but i won’t share it here. i’ll tell you if you’re my friend. haha kidding.

next post, unstoppable camp (:

the bride of Jesus

strugglingpowerfully — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 14:53:48 +0000

“…and at this moment there’s nothing more I wanna do than to give my life to build the church, the bride of Jesus…”

something i penned in my journal earlier on this year.

that moment has since translated into so many more heart-wrenching, heart-palpitating, unspeakable moments. as if God is carving something deep in my heart…. not enough, not enough yet.

hey man, i’m only nineteen. and i love the church. i LOVE the church! there is so much more i can do the possibilities are crazy. today as i was reading that part of my journal, a new revelation swept me away. building God’s church… you don’t have to be a pastor. you don’t have to stay in church office to do that. so many times people have told me that, but this time it kinda jumped at me and tugged my heart abit. the church has to be IN the world. God’s people need to be out there, everywhere, somewhere. (by the way, bo i’m really glad you are convicted to go do law )

i really pray, these God moments won’t just remain as feelings of conviction etched in my memory somewhere. these moments must, must, must definitely be lived out. starting… now. as who i am, where i am.

NOW!

unstoppable camp, i’m coming!

stay grounded

strugglingpowerfully — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 04:14:17 +0000

what an employee of Eslite (the biggest bookstore in Taiwan) said about Wu Ching Yu, the bookstore’s founder:

It is not for him that we are selling our lives out, but for the values he upholds.

good afternoon mooozy monday

strugglingpowerfully — Mon, 25 May 2009 07:27:21 +0000

an absolutely random attempt at alliteration. failed. hahaha.

I’m just done with the boys over flowers ost. yes i was listening to EVERY single song that dabs sent me (my nicname for debbie ) we are fanatics! haha okay no, i. i am. kpop is beginning to grow on me… and i don’t understand the lyrics, at all!! yay!

will blog about LC soon. it was awesome + the pre LC fun where we all went crazy. i miss everyone now! boohoosz.